Moms Just Worry - Day 43/44

I have started writing day 43 over and over again, bouncing between topics and just not feeling any of them were worthy of writing about.  This morning I finally landing on one that I believe all good mothers (and fathers) will understand.  Moms just worry.

Children must understand that moms are going to worry about you all of your life. We carried you inside our bodies for up to 9 months, you are an extension of us.  Many of us have been there for all of your first 18 years, through every cut, scrape, broken bone, and broken heart.  We were there to hold you and care for you.  We felt every boo-boo as if it was our own.  With every tear you shed our eyes welled and cried with you.  After you were made to feel better, bandages in place and emergency averted, we melted with relief knowing we could now release all the anxiety that built up while we were having to be strong.

You may now be all grown and out on your own but do not ever, even for a second, think that we will stop worrying about you.  Unlike in the animal kingdom when the parents just move on, good parents, both moms and dads will always worry about you.  You, that amazing grown up man or woman who is now out in the world providing for yourself, maybe even with children of your own, we will still feel every injury and worry every time there is something happening where you are.  I will forever have a connection that makes me tear up just a little once the storm has passed and I know you are OK.

So for all those moments you got annoyed by my checking in on you, those moments when you responded with some snarky comment about my checking up on you, understand that I only do it because I love you, because that bond is still there, and it will never stop.  Get used to it.  My love for you will always cause me to fear the worst but hope for the best.  My heart will always beat fast until I hear you are safe.  My mind will always race to those what-if thoughts hoping they never come.  Understand that as a mom I will always worry so get over it. Love you!

Disclaimer:  I cannot know how it feels to raise a child I did not carry but I am pretty sure that these feelings also expand to those amazing parents who have adopted children as well.  Just wanted to throw that out there.