I know I can - Day 28

The past day I have spent my time kicking myself for not being able to successfully complete something I worked so hard at.  For some reason something got in my head at the last part that caused me to lose.  Since then I have been trying to figure out what to do to get my head back in gear and make sure that it doesn't happen again. I have small idea what happened and it is literally, as a friend has so eloquently put it in the past,all in my head!

What I must do now is figure out how to get 'out of my head' and get back to doing what I have set out to do.  I know I can do it but getting it out of my head is the part I seem to lack the skill in doing.  Today, however, I will succeed because it is my time to shine. 

What is it that causes the self-doubt and self sabotage?  Is it hearing others say things under their breath that get lodged in our minds and sabotage us?  Is it our own inner voice that is really saying these things?  Does everyone have this problem or am I just special?  All questions I would love to have the answer to.

Surely I cannot be alone in this.  Can I?

I must find a way to get past it as it is holding me back. I must find the confidence in myself to be able to overcome this affliction.  No, this is not a disease that can be cured by medication...OK some may think so but I don't drugs.  (Ha)  To me, it is like a disease tho, a disease of the mind.  Something that needs to be addressed and cured so I can continue to better myself.  Regardless of what the challenge is, I need to have the confidence in my ability to complete the challenge and learn new ways to do so in the process.  Today, this will be by going within myself to find the thing I lack the most and repair it so it does not continue to hold me back.

I must change my state of mind and make sure that it is positive, remove all negative, remove all doubt, remove all other distractions that cause me to self sabotage and succeed. 

Goal today:  Think I can.  Know I can.  Do!